Negativity

HAPPYNES - THE ABSENCE of ALL NEGATIVE EMOTIONS   - Dennis Kimbro        
                                              
By definition, this is what Dr.Dennis Kimbro told me when asked what Happynes is. 
But It's taken me almost a decade to even begin understanding the depth of what he meant. 
Just as how we've been pursuing Happynes but not knowing what it really is or where it resides or how to bring it into being, i thought if only i could eliminate all negative things or people in my life then i would be happy. I went on a crusade against negativity like it was an enemy. Did i succeed? I had experienced occasional happynes but never LASTING HAPPYNES, which was what i hoped to gain. WHY?
Simply because HOW DO I ELIMINATE AN ENEMY WHEN I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT FORM IT TAKES OR WHERE IT RESIDES! Shooting randomly i might once in a while hit it, but then i  miss more often than i hit (the occasional happynes) 


Once again (just like happynes) i was pursuing an illusion which was a figment of my conscious mis-interpretation of what NEGATIVITY is. Simply meaning - i was pursuing something that i did not understand or had the awareness to understand.

What then is NEGATIVITY? Where does it come from? Where does it reside? Why does it affect us so much? And mostly, why was i so caught up in eliminating it? If its so bad, why does it exist in the first place?


We so often hear or say - negativity is all around us- this person or that person is so negative or the environment is so negative. For a conscious moment, when we reflect back on that statement, are we really able to specifically identify where or what this negativity is in perspective? For instance, the environment - is nature negative? Are the trees, flowers, animals negative?


What about People - Initially the negativity was felt only when there were certain type of people around. Moving away from those type of people seemed to reduce the negative feeling. Hence it had to be PEOPLE i thought. People had to be the carriers of the Negativity Bug. 
But we're surrounded by people wherever we are but are all people naturally negative? It must be something that's being done or said by someone that was being perceived as being negative. So its a particular action then! Is negativity an action? 
At least one thing - i managed to relate negativity to PEOPLE rather than nature. 
The next realization was - I too am part of the clan i call PEOPLE. Therefore i too must be a carrier of the Negativity Bug then!


Nature in essence JUST IS. Its neither positive nor negative. Nature is always in a constant state of BALANCE hence in a constant state of calmness - until of course there's human intervention. Isn't that the reason we run away for NATURE holidays with the hope of experiencing PEACE OF MIND or to CALM DOWN? Getting away from PEOPLE! We go to these nature holidays but get back to our daily life and start feeling the same again. Why? What happen?


Why does my daily life keep experiencing negativity & un-happynes? 


These were some the questions i seek to gain awareness  on, on this journey.